Update and that time of year again..

Soooo, October came and went. Baby granddaughter was introduced (with encouragement) to the world on September 4. Thankfully, she was a good weight, strong and with a pair of very impressive lungs!

Things are settling with only one or two feeding problems - not so much problems as slight hitches.

Now NaNoWriMo looms. I'm determined to 'pick up' my post conference motivation and win at this year's challenge. Mulling a new story at the back of my mind. Definitely will be a 'pantser' effort but so was the one I completed two years ago.

Wish me luck. Won't be back here until after November - updates on http://tannianowrimo.blogspot.com

So... life and all that

So much for the weekly entries I resolved to make while I was in Coogee. I returned from conference full of motivation and enthusiasm and a plan. Well, you know how that can be. In the early hours of the day after my return, the daughter, at 33 weeks pregnant was carted off to hospital. Her water broke creating anxiety all round.

However, at 34 weeks 5 days, the baby is still firmly encsconced in utero and life seems to be settling again, albeit temporarily, to a fractured normal. When I'm not at work, I spend a lot of time with her, or taking her for hospital appointments when her lovely partner has to work.

I'm still motivated, just tired. LOL. I'm clawing my way back though and will keep working on it.

It's been a while

It has, indeed, been a while. Things went backwards, resulting in a major meltdown and depression diagnosis. On the upside, my not coping, not being able to manage, and more, has a name and a treatment.

It has been a couple of months, so far, but I'm getting there. As I write this, I am in a hotel room in Coogee, Sydney, at the Romance Writers of Australia conference. I feel like I've come home. Surrounded by writerly friends, many of whom have been concerned for me, and the air full of creativity, I'm feeling motivated and positive. Now to translate that into action.

Onward and upward

With a little help from some herbal friends (not that one), some meditation and organising, I'm feeling so much better. I have not much writing this last week or so, but have tidied up a whole lot of loose ends I had not realised were bothering me. I am job seeking but selectively and meanwhile working on building a portfolio of writing samples and building up my work from home opportunities.

Melt down...

Okay, so a combination of physical illness, tiredness, stress relieved with a couple of situations sorting themselves out and I went into minor meltdown. Just could not cope with anything, tears fell copiously and often and I felt miserable. Not altogether sure what was the trigger, after a lot of thinking and soul searching, followed by a helpful discussion with a regular health care pro, I am in planning mode.

Employment has to change - writing has to be a priority - I have to look after me - take some time to be in the moment and relax. Bring it on.

Let's go

Just got to the stage of frustration and anger with myself, circumstances, life getting in the way, I've decided to push for my writing dream. I don't want to keep taking on 'fill in' jobs until... I'm going for it.

Having my new website designed by favourite daughter-in-law/web designer. Subscribing to various magazines and trawling the Writers Market publication.

Let's go.